Self Pitty
I stand here leaning on the fence watching my daughter ride a horse and do therapy. I don’t usually let my self feel down depressed or like life is too hard for her because no one can live with those why me feelings for long. Today however I feel a bit depressed.
When we walked in this morning the therapist noticed that haley’s shoulders were drooping and her left shoulder is hunched forward. Neither of us had previously noticed.
Haley is doing an intense therapy program this past week and most of next. The hippo therapist suggested that perhaps the intensive work might have her drained and I hope that is the case. It sometimes seems as though there are ever more issues, whether it’s reading, braces or insurance saying they will no longer pay for therapy this year we are always dealing with something and I guess a lot has transpired this past week.
Insurance has told us that we have maxed our visits for the year and they will no longer pay for therapy until next year at which point we will only have 60 visits. They are telling us that even though it is medically necessary as part of the surgery they pre-approved and they told us verbally that we would have unlimited visits based on the need, it doesn’t fall under our policy. So we will be paying for therapy out of pocket for the remainder of the year.
On a happy note as I was writing this post I got a facebook notification from a friend that he saw me on CNN. That felt good.
Haley and I leave for St. Louis tomorrow. She
Is doing fairly well since the surgery but she still doesn’t have the stamina back yet. I know it can take up to a year but I’ll be honest we saw such great gains early on that I think I felt she would be fully recovered by now. My own fault for building my expectations too high.
Now the intensive therapist is telling us she should be in braces. She is concerned that Haley will need another surgery if we do not put her back in braces. This doesn’t make Haley happy and honestly I’m not thrilled about it either but i need to take my feelings out of it and decide what is best for Haley. The problem is that not all dr’s and therapists agree. So in the end it’s up to Mel and I to make the right decision.
Please note this post was written last Saturday. I’ll post an update about St Louis tomorrow.
