Crazy!!!
I’ve been a little overwhelmed and slightly depressed lately and as such you have not seen the content that you have come to expect. I have actually written drafts of 5 posts in the last week but haven’t published any of them.
I’d like to share some of what is going on in my life right now both good and bad. Luckily most of it is good, it’s just that the bad feels some what overwhelming and I’ll get to that at the end of this post. Frist lets start with the good.
We are now more than 10% of the way to our final goal of 1000 participants.
We have started the PodCasts and the first podcast was with Drew Bennett. It was a great experience and Drew was awesome. We ended up doing the interview twice because of technical difficulties. I’ve very happy with the final podcast and spent a lot of time editing it and getting it added to iTunes. Drew if you read this thanks again for your help and flexibility.
I was interviewed yesterday by my friend Justin Lukasavige on CoachRadio.tv yesterday. We were live on uStream and the replay of the interview is scheduled to be posted April 12.
The really neat thing about the interview replay being posted April 12th is that is the same week I expect to have the new TheDADvocateProject.com web site going live. We’ve been working hard on that and Havana has been doing awesome work. You can have the opportunity to have her do a Twitter background for you simply by leaving a comment on any post that is up on the branding process.
Finally you should watch for my next podCast with @tessasdad later this week. We are recording tonight and I expect to post by the podCast by Sunday.
All the above said I am scalling back on my frequency of posting until we have the new site up. I have a lot of work to do to get the new site ready for launch. You should expect to see a weekly podCast, and occasional othe articles until after the site launch.
MySpellingSucks:
I’m excited to return MySpellingSucks to it’s origins and focus on specific issues related to my ADD, Dyslexia and my Daughters CP. We have the SDR comming up in May and we are all nervous. I’m also hopeful to be joining the board of a new Non-Profit Let’s Cure CP. They have an awesome mission and are gathering an awesome board. I’m excited to see what we will be able to do.
Also don’t forget an Awesome new book has been published by an inspiring new author. The book is called “I Am Not Weird!” and it is about Cerebral Palsy. The book was inspired when a little girl named Haley (My Daughter) went into the first grade and was called weird because another child thought she walked funny. The book talks about what CP is and how my daughter is just like everybody else but does some different things. It was written by Haley with the help of my Mother-In-Law and you can puchast the book here.
My Running:
Many of you will remeber that prior to Isaac being born I had been running. I had finally run a mile non stop. I was quite about the fact that I stopped running for 7 weeks just after he was born but then a friend started training for a half marathon and I decided to join his efforts. It’s been tough but I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to complete the entire half by the end of april. I am now able to run 3 miles non stop and I hope to run a large portion of the half. I know I’ll have to stop to walk some of it but that is okay my goal is to finish 13 and slow jog most of it. I’m currently thinking I’ll be pretty happy if I can make the following schedule: 2 mile run. walk 1 mile. Run 3 walk 1, Run 3 walk 1 run 2.1 We’ll see how it goes.
My Dad:
If you look at when my posts started to drift off you’ll notice that it closly corosponds with the date March 7th. On Sunday March 7th my dad visited Altanta for the first time since he left the area three months ago. We hadn’t been talking for an additionl two monts prior to that. There are a series of incidents and occurances with my Dad deciding he would and then wouldn’t speak to all of us children during the past 5 years or so and he has been dealing with depression for probably the last fifteen years.
This latest occurance of not talking with my father began on the day of my Son’s bris. He had said he really wanted to attend eventhough he has a very hard time with crowds of people. I had agreed really wanting my father there but fearing that he would back out. The day befor the bris he got in a fight with my sister and subsiqunetly called me to say he would not be comming to the bris. This was consistent with past behavior so at first I just said okay, but after thinking about it I called him back and asked why he would let his fight with my sister interfear with the bris. He just hung up on me. We had the bris the next day and he didn’t show. This was pretty much expected.
I was going to bed around 10:30 that night and checke my email one last time. There was one there from my father and I’m sure I have it somewhere but all that matters is how it ended. “Fuck YOU! Have a nice Life!!” I was devistated. Less than one month previous to this I had finally convince my father to talk with us again but asked that he never pull this kind of crap no matter how upset he is. Cutting us off and saying nasty things was not okay.
We’ll he never really apoligized for his behavior but he did relent and say that he must have misinterupted since everyone told him he had. When he came in the weekend of the 7th he called me for the first time and asked if I wanted to visit. I told him initially I wasn’t sure and I wanted to know if the invitation was just to me or for the whole family. He said whatever I wanted and I told him I would let him know.
I finally decided that I did want to see him but I wanted to establish some ground rules before he visited with the family. So I called and told him I wanted to see him but it would just be me. When he called me back he asked why and I said because I wanted to be sure everything was okay. He promptly told me well maybe we shouldn’t talk for another two years until you are sure and hung up.
I love my dad. He’s been a good dad my entire life but I believe this behavior is abusive and I won’t stand for it anymore. Unfortunatly that doesn’t make it easy. I have been very hesitant to write about this but I decided to share to see if anyone else has delt with this type of serious depression and these types of issues and please don’t be judgemental if you haven’t dispite my dad’s current state he was a good man and a good father while I was growing up. It’s just hard to loos someon before you have actually lost them.
Needless to say I’m CRAZY busy and things are good and thing are tough but Im happy I have my family, my health, my job, this blog and this community. thanks for being here.
